dr rao.

i was sick last week. so i skipped lecture and went to clinic in putra.

he checked my bp, took my temp, listened to my chest... and..the dr rao said;

so aqilah, you lack nutrition, your immunity is badly effected. you dont eat or what? eat please, you are not fat. and if you want to lose weight, exercise la, no time is no excuse la dear. ur bp is low lah. this is bad. you could faint masa you lintas jalan tau. boleh mati. and get some sleep. you look like a zombie. even in my final year i slept at 10 every night. i jadi doktor jugak kan?

hahahahahahahah. this doctor is the bomb.

qila ngantuk lapar stress nak exam

random thought;

cucms drives people nuts. but i love cucms nonetheless. though we are placed in this barren city, we unfailingly give our best to make our lives here interesting. in our own style. =)

moving on;

ronan keating said; all day long i can hear people talking out loud. yes yes i agree. i hear this and that all day long and in the end all i hear is badaboo badabba badabibbo. this happen in lectures too. =( them lecturers should really learn to slow down. finals is in a week. nak 4flat nak 4flat. jom study sampai kurus!

people asked, qila asal ko x give up? asal ko x walk away je? my answer is, when i love, i love like family, and giving up on a family member is never an option. period.

oh3. i found this quote today...

"We are not the same person this year as last,nor are those we love.It is a happy chance if we,changing,continue to love a changed person."-W.Somerset Maugham

exactly eh?

winter solstice

when the days are short and the nights are long
and the cold stings your bones
always remember
spring will show and summer shall come

believe.

hey hey you you

we protest for every single detail that disagrees with us.
we protest though we know it doesnt really matter anyway.
so tell me,
why haven't anyone protested on being judged, being measured to the impossible 'perfect'?

i am tired of being someone else's idea of perfect. screw going thin. screw putting on braces. and screw those people who can never stop bitching.

for i like myself the way i am. i am happy. =)

as for the personal matters;
noone needs to know how much i love, how much i trust, how much i think about or how much i appreciate. there is no need for any grand announcement.
Allah knows. i know, and he knows. and that is all that matters.

you can stop asking me those questions now. because i'll never tell you.

hello again

this is my 5th blog i think. and as always, i hope this one shall be my last. as an introduction this time, i wish to share the one thing i am working on.

i wish to change. as a whole. change how i react to people. my attitude. the bad first impressions on me. without realizing it, i have hurt many people i love. in every conflict, the fault lies on both sides. which means for every conflict i had and am having, i was and am guilty for each and every one of them.

therefore, to everyone i have hurt for the last 17++ years, i am truly sorry. apologizing to each and everyone is impossible. hence, to make it up to everyone, this is the best way i can think of;

stop myself and change for the better. for the sake of those i have hurt and for those i love so much.


written in bold red to further intensify my intent. =)