hey hey you you

we protest for every single detail that disagrees with us.
we protest though we know it doesnt really matter anyway.
so tell me,
why haven't anyone protested on being judged, being measured to the impossible 'perfect'?

i am tired of being someone else's idea of perfect. screw going thin. screw putting on braces. and screw those people who can never stop bitching.

for i like myself the way i am. i am happy. =)

as for the personal matters;
noone needs to know how much i love, how much i trust, how much i think about or how much i appreciate. there is no need for any grand announcement.
Allah knows. i know, and he knows. and that is all that matters.

you can stop asking me those questions now. because i'll never tell you.

hello again

this is my 5th blog i think. and as always, i hope this one shall be my last. as an introduction this time, i wish to share the one thing i am working on.

i wish to change. as a whole. change how i react to people. my attitude. the bad first impressions on me. without realizing it, i have hurt many people i love. in every conflict, the fault lies on both sides. which means for every conflict i had and am having, i was and am guilty for each and every one of them.

therefore, to everyone i have hurt for the last 17++ years, i am truly sorry. apologizing to each and everyone is impossible. hence, to make it up to everyone, this is the best way i can think of;

stop myself and change for the better. for the sake of those i have hurt and for those i love so much.


written in bold red to further intensify my intent. =)